Ted McMahon Poem



The Hardest Thing


An ordinary Thursday afternoon, first patient late. He sits where one-year checkups always do,
on his parent’s lap, new-hatched wariness
soon dispelled. All is well—two days from now I’m on vacation. And when, as in the usual course of things I feel his belly, I feel

the mass that fills the whole right side.

Because I have done this before, and because
in that instant the ghosts of thirty years materialize,
I know that in the next two minutes I’ll destroy
this couple’s world as now they know it. And the rest
of the afternoon, as reports come in from lab and ultrasound, I’ll say to other parents what is true for them
right now, “you have a healthy child.”

Ted McMahon